I woke up this morning with this scripture on my mind, (I should say that this waking up with Bible verses in my head is not a regular occurence):
...that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. Phil. 3:9
To gain Christ, to be found "in Him", is to be trusting in a righteousness that is not of human origin, not the result of my diligent attempts at a pious life, not anything that I can point to as validation for my ministry - or as a boost to my fragile ego.
To be found "in Him" is to rely on Him.
To rely on Him, is to cease from relying on myself. I don't know about you, but I do not want to stand before Holy God hoping that I have lived well enough to earn His favour.
What have I done that is worthy of being rewarded eternal life? What about you? Do you suppose God grades on a curve?